viam inveniam aut faciam.

Going to leave soon :3
Aaaand we're getting a new furnace! Very cool. The fix it men are gonna be doin' that while we're gone. So excited :D Aaaand....Nate's ring will be here soon! I'm sad because I think it'll arrive today and we might not be here when it does. ALAS, WOE IS ME. Not really - cuz it'll wait in the mailbox until we come back and then I can go TADA MOTHERFUCKER!

LOVE

Ummm yeah. And he wants to steal my idea for an x-mas gift for Rachel. Pout. WOE WOE IS MEEE. Again not really cuz....I know...things. Mwahahaha.

LOVE AND THINGS.
GA'BYE.

I love this icon.

Sooooo it's Monday. 48 hours from now I'll be in Louisville. I'm sad that we're not going to do a Turkey dinner, but being together it more important. Nate says the evening will likely be filled with the best pizza in Louisville and gaming. Sounds great to me :) I'm going to leave extra early this morning to find a spot since it's already late in the day. You know, there's always been at least one spot open for me, but there's always that first time when I have no place to part and have to get creative. I'm hoping since it's only a few days until break that more people will be gone and that will leave me with closer options of parking. Woo. Such is the life of a college student. Oooo only a few more weeks for me.

Gaaah la di da.

This is the best advertisement I've ever seen for a charity organization.



May have to buy a goat.

Cop with a kitty.

Okay, the brownies/cookies for tonight are made, laundry is almost done for today, and the rough draft of the paper and powerpoint for forensics is done. Last night at the Regularly Scheduled Friday Night Dinner Game Session there was much hilarity. Oooo, I gate Nate an x-mas present already :3 WOO. Not gonna say what it is, though. I'm still working on the anniversary ring. Gotta size him again and see what quote he'll be okay with. The one he told me about is too long T-T At least it's too long when it's in latin and I think the latin is cool. I'll see what he wants later tonight or tomorrow (not sure if I'll see him tonight before bed or not). We're both going out today :) I'll be at the forensic pre-Thanksgiving party and he'll be at school and then later at Chuck's. Depending on when the dinner gets out, I may swing by Chuck's, but I may not. We'll see. OOO SUSPENSE.
Wow, with the paper out of the way, there's not much to work on yet ^_^;; I really though it'd take me a long time this morning. Well, I did get /some/ work on it done yesterday, but mostly I just goofed off with the other undergrads in the lab.
Did you know tomorrow is Bible Sunday? Calendar says so, whatever that means.


CLEANING TIME YAY :D

x______________x

thinking makes yoo ded.

Curse you, taphonomy. Gah. It's an extremely interesting project, but I have this nagging feeling that it won't matter what I do, we'll all get Bs. No one knows what they have in this class for a grade, but I really think we'll all pass just fine. Which makes one not want to work hard because you don't appear to need to. Totally kills my motivation, but to my credit I'm half way through the case notes :3 Woooo so many pages of bugz. Got called in to close and, well, I would if I didn't have class ^_^;; Heh. My brain hurts so I took a break from the epic bug project. After class tonight I'll probably review...something. Anything. Time keeps slipping by and I'm okay with that - means I'll get my new video game sooner.
Oh, and graduation! Lawls.
Wooooweee, my brain is fried. It's one of those quietly cold and drippy days that makes studying easy. I want to buy Nate a ring because jewelry is cool. Because it would make me happy to see him wear something all the time from me. It makes me happy to always have this little shiny ring from him (even though I twisted his manly arm into getting it). Makes me happy, yeah.
Buuuuh braaaain.

OH MIE GAWD I HAVE THE ENTOMOLOGY NOTES FOR THE CASE I'M STUDYING HOLY JEEZUS 73 PAGES OF PURE BUGGY GOODNESS ALL FOR ME.

::iz ded::

I finally found the golden pages, oh so sexy pages.



....and I'll read it tomorrow cuz eye yam tired.


OH HO HO HO HO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MWAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA EYE HAZ THEM!
THIS IS MY HAPPY FACE.

Supposedly I'm still on the schedule to work 2-close at the sandwich shop. Shoppe. Schup. Happy hump day, kids. ::yawn:: Looking forward to vacation time. I wish the boyfriend's sister wouldn't stress out T-T Originally, the plan for the holiday was to head down there and eat foodz, but now...we donno. She's worried that the house is a mess, that she won't have time to cook, etc. I had Nate text her and say all I needed was a Starbucks frappacino and I'd clean the whole house :3 She responded with, "She doesn't need that much caffeine o_O" Nate doesn't mind cooking (he /likes/ it, duh). Problem solved, right? ::shrug:: They can come up here, too, if they want :3 I just want family together. Doot di doot. I got meester Nate to the gym last night :) He likes going, a little, but he usually doens't go on his own so I'm trying again to make it a regular thing for us to go together (like last year). Really, it's because he likes his body better when he knows he's going to the gym regularly, or at least that's what I see. And he does like biking. I have to remember to show him how to use the little display on this gym's bike. It's kind of old so it takes some getting used to. Bah la di da. Gah. I tried applying to a private security firm, but internet explorer sucks and ate my application. Twice. Gaaah. Ah well - it didn't seem to be up my alley, anyway.
It's official - December 8th is when I'll get my precious new game :3 I'm 5 years old. Phew. I should either eat before work or make something to bring with me. Doot di doot.

Viam inveniam aut faciam.

ASLKFJDINASDLKJALKSDJF! BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
D:<

Hoo.
Spent a half hour trying to apply to this security place, but IE ate my application and my user name. God-friggin-damnit. Ah well. I huggled Nate for a bit after swearing and I figure I'll try again with the darn thing later today. Might as well, right? I could work today, but don't wanna. I work most of tomorrow, so there. Katlyn is awesome - she missed most of last week because of exams/being sick and needs to make up hours. She wanted to take my Friday closing shift and I said HOO RAH! Very nice. Maybe the karma rebalancing was the f-ed up application? Go figure. The forensic project doesn't seem too hard - more like I can choose how hard it's going to be. Next week will be short days for me, though I'll be closing both Monday and Tuesday. Ah well - gotta at least /try/ to work hard, right? Sigh. Rain, rain, rain.
Ever get that feeling that you're exactly where you're supposed to be? That things might not work out for the better, but they'll at least work out? Felt that way on the bus ride home; I'm in my place, where I need to be, and things will work out. I don't believe it'll all be perfect, but I believe there are good things ahead. Exciting things, even. /end rambling

"Wherever there are happy memories, there will also be love." -Granny
"Let him go. Let him go in peace, and he will leave you in peace." -Anon

I MADE COCONUT COOKIES WOO HOO!

Felt like baking today and that's what happened. Got the first load of laundry done alongside watching Constantine and working on the soc review. Actually finished the review (basically re-writing all the notes). Have a few things to ask questions about and might email the prof tomorrow about the questions I may already know the answers to. I want to get all the information straight as soon as possible since the exam is the week after break and I don't want to study /hard/ over break, though I will study. Hey, ho, lets go! The plan is to renew the lease tomorrow afternoon with the manpiece. Tonight we're having dinner...somewhere. Oh! I had a scavenger hunt set up for him for the anniversary of 14th-ness :3 And guess what he got me? A tshirt about polar airlines. XD It's a polar bear throwing penguins. MWAHAHA. I heart polar bears.
What else remains of the day? Relaxing after all that "hard" work, I suppose.
Da na na.

OH HAI THAR!



We are gonna sample wines, laugh at things, and be happy. Tomorrow's the one-and-a-half year anniversary LALALALA. Fernando and I had lunch and had not one, but /two/ intellectual conversations. Yet also talked about anal motor boating. Lawls. We are five years old. And that's why we get along.

Bring on the love.

Snow Patrol - Set Fire to the Third Bar.
I love this song and the video is great.

Gonna study in a just a bit, but wanted to post or maybe just write.  Same thing, eh?  Wondering about jobs.  Looked up the site Pat gave me and found a lot of jobs I may be suitable for...too bad their in many different states.  I hope I find something around here.  Dad thought I'd stay with Nate regardless of finding a job or not.  To quote the father figure, "I twas thinking you would follow him - wherever he ended up.  Guess we'll see."  Don't mistake this for me /wanting/ to go somewhere where the tall ninja won't be.  It'll be one of those bridges you burn when you get there and not before.  Seriously, though, the Pennsylvania lab tech thing looked cool.  Or the ones in Florida.  There were a lot in Florida.  What will happen?  Who knows.  Heh, wouldn't that be funny if the soc prof actually got me a job?  Lawls.  Hey, I'll try anything once and I hadn't pestered a professor yet.  Maybe she'll have a contact or two for me?  Stranger things have happened.  For now I'm going to study for forensics, then entomology, perhaps work on the extra credit piece for soc, then work on my super secret present for Nate.  Saturday is our year-and-a-half anniversary.  I told him we were celebrating it if only for an excuse to take him out to the southern rib joint.  Love it!  Also him.  Always him :3  
I'm terrified of the future, but I'm excited to kick its ass.  For Granny, for Mom, for Les, for Dad, for everyone else that's ever believed I could stand up and do it on my own.  For Jayne and Whit, who've stood by me.  For Nate, who stands with me.  I am one lucky sonofabitch.

All you needs is love, a sense of irony, and self-confidence.  Oh, and cookies.

On November 4th, 2009, 5pm Illinois time, Grandpa passed away.  He gave 'em hell.  Death is a natural part of life and I've come to terms with it's silent comings and goings in our lives.  To paraphrase Jud Crandall: eventually death is going to come into the house and say howdy, sometimes it'll stay for supper, and sometimes it bites you in the ass.  What happens when we die?  It's a question every child has when their first pet gets hit by a car at the side of the road (if they're lucky).  It's a questions I asked when my mom passed.  It's a question I still ask; don't we all?  My head says nothing - you die.  Your body rots and the magical part that made you walk and talk ceases to be.  My heart hopes that somehow, despite rationality, we find a way to go home.  Not to heaven, not to hell, just home.  But oblivion doesn't sound too bad, does it? 
Ask me again - what happens when we die?
Our friends and family keep on living.  If you're one of those lucky friends or family of the deceased, then you've got a tough job to do.  Live.  Grandpa died, but I get to live.  I get to live with the memories of that tough old bastard.  Memories of him swearing at traffic, refusing to give in to that damned cancer, taking me to the fair, and being the stoic Italian man who never ate grits.  He loved coffee, whiskey on the rocks (always on the rocks), harley davidson, and supposedly he even liked cats.  He loved his cars, his family, and my Granny (always my Granny).  Maybe we do get to go home.  Maybe there's nothing.  But for now, I give my nod to death and accept him as he walks through my house.  May he be content with what he finds and not tarry for more. 
We, the living, have a job to do.

Give 'em hell.

Grandpa's in the hospital.  That tough old piece of shoe leather has been kicking cancer's ass for the last several months and what finally puts him in the hospital?  A damn tear in the bowel.  Doesn't seem fair, but it never is.  Give 'em hell, Gramps.  God, keep givin' 'em hell.  Please.

Heavy damn sigh. 
Work called me in, but I'm already working for The Other Restaurant so I can't bail them out, too.  What is it with this week?  Everyone forgot they had exams, apparently.  Closing at The Other Restaurant is way faster, so there's no way I'm trying to switch.  Nate's dad stopped in for breakfast and took us out to eat 'cause he's a nice guy.  Damn, I feel like /we/ need to take him out one day just because he stops in so much. 

Heavy goddamned sigh.
I think I'll wait until the end of November to renew the lease.  Or at least until the tall ninja and I have talked about it again.  I mean, I do like it here, but does he really want to get the double major?  I don't understand it because I'm very very very very very very /done/ with the college thing.  Want out.  
Hope I can find a parking space on campus this afternoon T-T  My only concern, eh? 


Shiiit.

Do di do.  Listening to Nate and Scott "study" for their religion class (Buddha, Buddha!) and mostly they just goof off, which is also amusing.  I made biscuits and Nate made pork steaks.  Tomorrow morning the tall man's father is coming...FOR BREAKFAST.  At, like, 8:30 in the ae em.  Totally lame.  But whatevs.  Ellie asked me to fill in for her tonight for the last three hours at the sammich place.  I'm closing there tomorrow so I thought it was a good chance to review on closing jobs there.  Hoo boy.  I like working there :3  Only...6 more weeks of school?  Something like that.  The boyfriend and I - mostly him - are thinking about renewing the lease.  I like the idea of staying in one place for more than a year ^_^;;;  Also, this place is nice.  Decent town, nice home, acceptable gym; not having to move over the summer would be amazing.  We've got until...the 30th to renew the lease with for an acceptable increase.  We've been doing okay on money.  Nate's been keeping a good record of utilities and all that.  We don't keep track of the "fun money" like going out to eat or going to the movies and until we're really running out of cash, I'm not going to worry about it.

Doot di doot.

Looks like there are a lot of shifts needed to be covered at work.  I'm not gonna let 'em all go unfilled so I'll be taking at least three of the total of a bazillion.  Really, Dana's offering cash-on-hand as reward for taking some of these shifts.  They're really up the creek without a paddle.  Doesn't she remember I work for frappacinos?   Did I spell that wrong?  Spell chequer says I did.  Lawls.  Sleepy now.  Was gonna post, but now sleepy.

Ga'night.

I applied for a juvenile probation officer position.


XD


In all honesty, I probably won't get it...yet.  Heh.  I'm waiting until the end of Nov/beginning of Dec to apply to the juvenile care center again.  They already said they liked me.  There are a surprising amount of positions opening in my field.  Nice.  Lets keep up the momentum until January, shall we?  You may ask yourself why I'd apply to a job I probably won't get.  The answer to that question is because I simply must.  If there's a chance - albeit a small one - then I must try.  Viam inveniam aut faciam, and all that.  The officers I interviewed with said Stop At Nothing and that's precisely what I'm going to do.  Or not do.  Or however you'd say it to make it seem as if I was an unstoppable force of awesome.  Sure, part of me is anxious about graduating, but I've got people that believe in me.  A granny that acts like a cheerleader, a boyfriend that thinks I can do anything, and a sister that's optimistic enough for the both of us.  Anything is possible.


Heh heh heh.
I'm not afraid of this.  I'm afraid of epidermal parasites and getting shots from the doctor, but not this.  I finally know what I want in life.  I'm staying with Nathan for as long as this wild ride goes.  He rocks my world and there are plenty of opportunities to practice law enforcement all around the country.  I'm not saying I'll follow him anywhere, but there's a very good chance that if he goes somewhere crazy, I'll be there right next to him.
Touching his butt and making bad jokes.

Find what makes you happy.  Surprisingly enough, I did.  I always thought it'd be a career being a tough-as-nails cop, someone hungry to solve cases and never give in to difficulty.  
Heh, who says I can't have both?
Happy early Halloween.

Good morning.
Baked pies and made stew and biscuits yesterday.  Spent all day in the kitchen and it was a blast.  Plum pie is hard to make 9_9  The strawberry-and-cherry was great, though.  Leftovers = win.  I'll start getting today's chores outta the way after breakfast.  What's for breakfast?  Biscuits-from-a-can and leftovers because I'm lazy.  I thought about trying to make crepes, but it's effort.  Bah.  Don't wanna have effort in the morning ^_^;  Heh, my manager found out only Friday that I graduate in December.  Wasn't she surprised?  Lolz.  She made the most sour face I'd ever seen.  Heh, it's nice to feel needed, I guess. 
Not much else is going on right now.  School has a lull in the action and looking for a job still seems a bit premature.  I'll wait until it's closer to D-Day.  ::sigh::  Don't know why I feel blah right now.  Need more coffee, perhaps.  ::shrug::  I think I'm just down about the new silent hill game being delayed a month.  ::pout::  I want to play it before I graduate, damn it.  Wanted it to be the 'last hurrah' before the job hunt began in earnest, but thems the breaks.  Just because I graduate and get a real job doesn't mean I won't play video games.  It might even mean I get to play them more because there won't be homework.

:3

"Don't stop what ya do, I won't stop loving you, because I like the things you do - whatever iiiiisssss don't stop." -Patrick and Eugene

Helped out at Local Sandwich Shop and had a blast; those are some fun people :3  I like being able to supplement my hours whenever ^_^;;  I feel lucky.  Oooo, wooo. 
I AM FULL OF LOOOOVE.
And a sammich.  Tiny Manager rocks because she let me use her discount to eat fudz.  Oooo, how I love teh fudz.  I also shared the love with the Local Mexican Restaurant in the form of somewhat-stale-and-unsellable cookie bars.  Oh yes, Fellow Student Supervisor, I know you love me.  Now if only I could make sure he'll work his Halloween shift, lol. 

"Don't worry about a thing, 'cause every little thing is gonna be alright." - Bob Marley

If we ever get a weener dog, I told Nate we'd name it Link after the video game character, but we'd tell everyone else that it was named after a sausage link.  MWAHAHA.  I feel brave and happy.  I like rainy days.  I like dogs.  I'm gonna bake pies and stew and things on Saturday and wear comfortable clothes and huggle Nate. 
Friends are the people who laugh with you when you're stupid and don't take it personally when you're cranky because they know you're just hungry.  Friends are people who share your (horrible) taste in music and movies.  Friends understand the awkward times.  Friends understand the sad times.  
A best friend is someone you might not see for a year, but will talk with you like it was just yesterday that you did something stupid and awesome with.  Jayne, Whit - that means you.  You bums :D


BUTT!

We're going crazy places but I guarantee I'll hunt everyone down every once in a while to catch up with.
You have been warned.  Warmed?  Warn-ed.